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Sunday, 08 November 2009

Remember to breathe.

One day away from the biggest day of my life. Everything I have been working towards for eleven and a half years, I can't believe it's finally here. It doesn't seem real.
In the past week, I have studied more than I ever studied in my life. Been so stressed/ scared out of my wits I just sit there in front of my books and cry. Love my best friend even more because I know I can't even go a day without talking to her(heehee). Got so mad at my mother for intruding into my life but later understood that she does everything for me out of love and concern. Mothers will be mothers, how can I stay mad at her.
Then I ended the week with supper on friday at sempang with shermy, suren, jerome, hz and daniel. Despite already having dinner before I met them, I ordered tissue prata but couldn't finish it then later lied to hz that I kept it for him haha. All we could think of was plans after exams, to think we're only two weeks away from ultimate liberation.
Dinner at chomp chomp on saturday was awesome, I haven't savoured hawker fare like that for a long time. Since it was so hard to get a table there, we resolved to order as much food as we could to make our efforts all worth it, typical sinagporean attitude I know. And I finally ate raw cockles, the kind where you have to dig it out of its shell on your own! The mud and dirt were squirting out and our table was so messy but it was totally worth it because the cockles were the boooomz I swear.
I woke up at eleven thirty this morning, went for breakfast and queued up for freaking thirty minutes for a bowl of noodles. Damn I hate hawker centres. All I wanted was a bowl of wanton mee!
p.s thank you for the rose, I think it's preeeeeeety♥

Muse and green day next year, it's going to be epic I just know it. So far I've found poeple to go for muse with, but no one wants to go for green day! Why why why. I think green day still has an amazing old school charm about it and I wanna go so anyone who wants to go, let me know(:
So to everyone sitting for a levels next week, good luck! In two weeks time, it would all be over and the fun begins
because now I know you're just not worth all the pain.

Love,
Stephanie

Tuesday, 03 November 2009

Omg it seems like forever since I last posted pictures on my blog. Like a month I think. Which is why I need to switch to livejournal soon, hopefully after the exams I'll figure out how to. Something else to add to my long list of things to do. Okay I will not be distracted by my list of plans again.
Studied with charm at the expo today but talked like most of the time, which was really bad because I planned to finish so much work today! This is the result of not sticking to our monthly pland so whenever we meet up there's so much to catch up on and we take hours to catch up. It's kind of retarded because technically we text everyday. Plus I showed her something really funny and we were like for like forever (I smear cheesy pasta on your face hahahaha). Omg we're so going to party together/ get a job/ hopefully go to europe after exams! Love you bestie♥
And these are pictures from the last time I met her.

I am addicted to online shopping now, I think it's the only way I get to destress. Mummy thinks it's just an excuse. It's kind of crazy, I even bought a hello kitty key cover last week with a little rainbow on it so cuteeeee(: But it seems to take forever to ship here, three weeks is so long I want to see all my clothes now!
I've been thinking of uni overseas a lot after talking to issy. We've always said we were going to go off together somewhere one day, ever since primary school. We always got so excited thinking about getting an apartment together, starting a new life in totally different place together. But now it seems like neither one of us wants to leave. First, I need to get decent grades in order to stay here.

I ♥ kate moss.

Love,
Stephanie

Monday, 02 November 2009

Nobody tells the truth.

I'm tired and exhausted after getting lost in serangoon interchange and travelling to places so foreign it doesn't feel like singapore anymore.

I studied with shermy today then met mag at the deserted and shabby serangoon interchange to take a bus to gardens. The rest met us at gardens and we celebrated amelia's birthday at ice cube. Played lots of stupid games the whole night but also had a lot of fun. Getting a cab from therevis a nightmare though.

Btw ice cube is a really good place cause they play the best club songs.

Now I realise you really can't trust what anyone tells you, not even your closest friend. Because whatever they say to you could very well be lies. There's no point saying things you don't mean and there's no point sugar coating everything you say. Because at the end of the day, you still make me doubt you more than ever. I shouldn't have read what I did, but that just made me realise I can't trust everything you say.

I miss having someone to talk to about this. Only you would understand.

I'm addicted to a new game on my itouch it's called sushi chain, it's really cuteee. I'm waiting for shermy to send me pictures from tonight!

Love,
Stephanie

Sunday, 01 November 2009

I wonder what you're doing right this minute.

It's one am and I've just watched the last episode of cougar town which was hilarious. And I just spent a bomb online but I just keep telling myself I really need those clothes because I'm going to buy them sooner or later. There's so much on my mind now I just can't get to sleep.
I think it's terrifying how everyone has been talking about an apocalypse. I honestly think men are going to self destruct because of what we are doing to the environment, and it is almost impossible to get complete cooperation from six billion people in the world to want to save the environment because most people just don't realise how serious the problem is. Four days ago, it was scorching hot in beijing and they had a snow storm today. This erratic change in weather isn't just coincidence, it's man made and it's just going to get worse.
I watched This is it on friday with shermy, smelly, amelia and daniel. The show is awesome and seeing MJ dance and perform really makes you realise he was a legend, I don't think there's any other performer quite like him now. The concert tour could have been phenomenal, it was a pity it never materialised. The people in the theatre were killjoy though, they were mostly young immature kids who kept making stupid noises throughout the show. They have no respect for the king of pop at all.
Then met issy and b and the whole group last night but it wasn't anything spectacular, I think because everyone had exams at the back of their minds and no one was really in the partying mood. One more month and we're going to pull out all stops and go crazy with the parties. I can almost smell liberation.
I can picture life a month from now. Free like a bird. Sleeping in, waking up for lunch, meeting friends for brunch, going anywhere whenever I want, partying every night. It almost seems too good to be true. But I wouldn't know what to do with all that time either, I might spend half the day stoning just wondering what to do next. And I also know come after exams, that small tiny feeling's going to come back again.
Starting next week, I am going to wake up by nine am every morning, be at the expo by eleven am and sit my ass there to study till eleven pm. Lunch is limited to an hour and please slap me if I start talking too much. The last week! I can totally picture everyone joining hands and dashing towards the finish line. I really hope everyone is in good health and is studying very hard! I miss all my friends and everybody I haven't been seeing because of exams, just know that I'm missing all of you very much(:
The bad thing about being awake in the wee hours of the morning all alone is that you start thinking a lot, mostly about unneccessary stuff, and some part of you feels sad again. But only in the nights, becayse I'm enjoying every other minute of the day.

Love,
Stephanie

Thursday, 29 October 2009

Currently
No More Doubt
By Stephen Speaks
Out of my league
see related
Finding my way back to the start.

I stayed home to study yesterday then met cammy to study some more, met issy and benji at night to chill. My days are so boring these days it depresses me. One more month. I am counting down my days to liberation!
I wish I could fast forward time and a levels would be over. Somehow everything after exams seem like a mystery, like you don't really know what's going to happen. Especially with the abundance of time you have to spare. But one things for sure, I am going to make the most of every minute and get my well deserved fun. I want to enjoy this holiday so much because I've waited so damn long to finally party without worrying about going back to school and going back to the books.
I am super excited about orlando now because daddy has promised to bring nich and alloy along to join us on vacation so that I can have someone to ride the rollercoasters with me while sammy has a ball on the kiddy rides heehee. You know the feeling you get whenever you have to goon family vacations, like you don't really want to leave cause you're afraid you'll miss out on everything that's going on back home while you're away. For once I don't have that feeling this year and I'm actually excited to leave, which was what made it so easy for mummy to convince me to spend christmas away from home. I will miss the christmas parties though, and making my eggnog(don't laugh at me!).
It's so sad that the guys are all going to army next year, less people to party with): And hz made a very stupid observation, he said the smarter guys go into army earlier, and so that's why he's enlisting in feb.
Scarlet noir at supperclub tonight. Issy has been texting me incessantly to go): I wish I could but it's a week before a levels and I know I would wake up feeling like crap tomorrow and full of guilt so I am going to watch this is it with my best friend, come home before twelve and go to sleep like I should. Please don't tempt me I'll keeeeel u.
Sunshine is days away, I won't be saved I know all the words.

Love,
Stephanie